You know along my 22 year journey called life-at-this-point, I’ve gotten to know myself a little better each year. Yes, I’m an emotional person. Emotions. I experience them at a more heightened level than everyone. My emotional being makes me vulnerable, but at the same time it allows me to connect with people on a personal level with ease. And so I have a way with people. According to Oprah, feelings are the “GPS system for life. Even doubt means don’t. This is what I’ve learned.”
I’ve been on clinical placement for Nursing the last couple of weeks and today I was buddied up with a Registered Nurse who was still relatively young – in her 20s. She was quite stern, yet she was thorough and I learnt a lot from her. I could tell she was Filipino. We must have had a similar upbringing, one full of family, working hard and high expectations. She was to try on her wedding dress that afternoon after work. Sometimes I would pick up on things she would say, and I’d be like I’d say something along those lines too. However, now that I’m at home, a part of me wonders whether than stern side to her was inherent. My gut tells me Nursing has changed her. “You need to be assertive in Nursing” they tell me. “Otherwise, people will walk all over you in this industry.” I ask myself whether I really do want to be a part of a culture full of bullying and bitchiness. Even the best wards, have some underlying demeaning tone. Each experience in life is a lesson, and I guess Nursing is teaching me so much.
270 Days of Happy 